So...
Last night, after a long absense from home, I returned for dinner and a bit of a chill out session whilst waiting for Sam to come over.
And seeing that I havent really hung out with mommy for awhile now, I decided to join her on the couch, sit and chat, rather than just hiding out in my room like I always do. Sigh.. now, im thinking it might be a mistake.
7.41 amGood morning. God spoke revealed unto me your deceptive living about not allowing other people to dictate your living but in truth, you are. Cause you are living your life through the dictatorship of the world whose master is Satan himself. For this I pray realising we cannot live being dictated. I pray you live it through God's guidance with your confessing of your believing in God. Love you and will always bring you before God.-mom2.46 pm From Dad - Book of ECCLESIASTES 12:13The conclusion, when all has been heard is FEAR GOD & KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS because it applies to every person. Every act, hidden, good, or evil will be judged by GOD.- dadNow, reading all that, you'd probably think that I commited the most heinous of crimes right? wrong. All I did was spend about 30mins with mom and talked about my current life, which mostly consists of work and a new bf.
You see, it all started out with my mom asking me if things were going ok with a shoot, and I told her that it wasn't my project, but it was Mr X's. So then, she started asking me things about him, probably guessing that something is up, since I dont usually bring people home, etc.
After a bit, I asked what she thought about him etc, had an extensive talk about my new rship. And THEN.. she asked the dreaded question of whether I've been staying at his place for the lenght of time that I've been MIA from home. I told her the truth, which is yes..
Anyhow, that's besides the point. We got into the discussion of whether it is appropriate for a couple to sleep over and all that, and I was pro-sleepovers and she, obviously was against it. And the whole time I was feeling like I lived in some dark-ages where it's taboo for men and women to be seen "together" in a house, alone. Sheesh. And to make matters worse, this isn't even a question of whether sex is involved. (yes, my parents are very very strict christians that do not believe in pre-marital sex, so they think that Im not having sex)
"People would talk about you. Even if you're pure and not "doing" anything".
"Eventually, people won't respect you anymore. What would they think of you!"
"If you want your relationship to work, I urge that you do the right thing. Don't make the same mistakes (aka sleeping with them)."
And here I'm thinking, are you serious...
So I just plainly tell her that I'm not gonna live my life dictated by what other people might say or think, because my life is my own and they should respect that. And if they don't I shouldn't give 2 fucks anywyas, cos ultimately, the relationship is between me and him. And if, god forbid, this rship doesnt work out, my future rships will be between me and whoever else. Its a 2 person's world. I really dont care what others might think of me.
Selfish as it may sound, I can't live my life pleasing others right?
That and if a guy really loves me, he'd beyond my past and accept me for me.. And if he chooses to believe hearsay from others, rather than trust his own judgement of who I really am, then he doesn't deserve me.
BUT...
tell you mother this, and all you get is her saying that you live your live the way Satan wants you to. That Satan controls you.
Whoopdeedoo.
-.-"
Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, but they're just a litttttleeeee bit much sometimes. sigh..
