2008 has really been looking up for me. =)
I'm glad.
In recent events, I realise that the older we get, the more fragile things seem.
The thin veil of protection and blissful ignorance that our parent's love provided for us slowly slips away, uncovers a world so beautiful but so fragile.
The confidence we had when we were young all falls away. With the protective layer peeled from our eyes, our every move seems to bear more consequences and impact. We are infinately more hesitant and afraid to move. With every step forward that we take, the obstacles in the beautiful glass world seems more daunting. Any wrong move that we make could break a masterpiece, a work of art that took years to perfect.
The fear of breaking, the fear of losing, of disruption keeps us from moving forward. Perhaps as a young child, free from fear, we would have danced through the illuminous glass, not knowing of the dangers. Letting instincts guide us through all the knooks and crannies, thru twisted corners and lowered ceilings.
So what changed? Shouldnt we be braver, stronger and smarter when we can see the truth? With the veils of false security is ripped away, why do we feel afraid? Why not continue trusting our instincts but with a better understanding of the truth around us?
Why shouldnt we be twirling with laughter, as graceful as a ballerina through this obstacle called life? In these past few weeks, I've thought a lot about how I should let my life proceed from here. In terms of work and otherwise.
I've realised that I cannot be living my life wondering what if. What if i stay where i am? What if i moved, what if i did this, or said that. It drives me nuts! So, for 2008, my resolution would be to trust my instincts. There's been enough of analyzing, wondering and questioning in 2007. I need to start living life again instead of living in fear.
What's the point of being in a beautiful world if all we do is creep around. I'll twirl and dance my way through my little glass world. So be it if I break a sculpture or two. What's to say it won't be better off as sparkling, glassy dust? or a stained glass window. Life is for the living. Mistakes happen, and your heart is bound to be broken sometime or another. Just gotta know how to pick yourself up and grow from that.
Yup, 2008 definately feels like it's gonna be a good one. Let's hope I'd remember this lesson through the year and more.
Here's to you. Wishing you a great year ahead too. Happy living.